This year marks 17 years that I've been working in the beauty industry.
An industry that I've been in and come to wonder and question so much about more than any other year.
2018 so far has been such a revelation to me because of how unfair we seem to be within our own selves and how awful us humans seem to be with our own reflection. Let me go out there and say that it has more to do with what the mirrors reflect upon.
A mirror only has power to reflect what others see on the outside, it's our unkind mind that has us plagued and therefore it takes over like a dark cloud on a rainy day.
Catering to the unkind mind has been my specialty for so long that its taken me years to understand how people work their way into seeing themselves in a whole aspect than what I'm able to comprehend just from standing behind them.
Anywhere from the aspects of feeling drab, ugly, outdated, bored, sad, broken or even lost, sometimes the soul's sitting in my chair have ALL of these feelings inside them, or maybe just one. Once I'm able to pinpoint their insecurities, its time for me to strap those demons and wrestle with them and hopefully continue to keep them tied up long enough for my clients to be able to see what beauty they can possess without seeing what they feel on a daily basis.
I'm not kidding when I say this:
I take these demons home with me at times knowing well what havoc they'll wreak on me and my mind. Although I can affirm that I am a strong person, I still have vulnerabilities that I myself must wrestle with from time to time.
I take home anything from heartache, cancer, rejection, depression, domestic violence, substance abuse, etc. You name it, I've wrestled with it.
The key to rising above it is knowing who you belong to, ACCEPTING your inner demons and trusting that they too have an expiration date. As much as people can be beautiful, they can also destroy the most treasured part of your being.
Trust me, I too know what it's like to be in complete darkness, its fear and its objectifying sense of static freezing cold nature. It's a wave that has come from time to time, a cloud that will rear its ugly fog to make me believe that it can consume me again like it once did. Yet I know better now, I know where I stand when I look in a mirror, I know where I stand when I face the world and I know where I stand when I pray to the skies.
DIMINISH the darkness
RELY on your self worth
FIGHT for who you wish to become
Should you need help, you know where I am and I'll fight right alongside you.