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Sunday, February 13, 2011

Wrong Impression..Or is it?

How many times do a lot of us, GET the Wrong Impression and/or actually GIVE the Wrong Impression? If you're saying "Not me!", grab a slice of HUMBLE Pie and start eating!

The best way I could ever describe giving the Wrong Impression would be by sharing with you one of the songs that really describes this feeling:

This song came out in late 2001, when I had just turned 18 and let me tell you, it is by far in my Top 10 Favorite songs of all time!

Natalie Imbruglia's "Wrong Impression" simply consists of someone merely taking a chance on love. She's so careful with wanting to make the right choice that she is taking precaution before making the move, that way she doesn't give the "Wrong Impression" and

1. Scare the love of her life away
2. Live the Wrong Impression

Notice in the song when she sings:

I want you
But I want you to understand
I need you
I love you


The word LOVE can scare a person, especially when it comes to the heart. It took me so long to finally say "I LOVE who I am" that in that time it even affected those around me. Saying it is one thing, and meaning it is another, if we give ourselves the Wrong Impression, all were doing is lying to ourselves and making things worse.

If you notice in today's world, break-ups, cheating scandals, fights, etc., break out because someone in the relationship forgets to truly find meaning in themselves. Take this song for example and sing it to yourself, it takes on a whole different course on its own. If you say:



I want you
But I want you to understand
I need you
I love you


to yourself, would you be able to understand what "loving" yourself really means? What the word "need" really translates to? Now don't get me wrong, I myself sometimes have trouble finding meaning, yet going there, searching for the answer can be a lot quicker to find if I truly look in the mirror and see "ME" for who I really am.

In the past few years, my last 2 relationships, I was trying to change my looks to make someone else desire me, I had the latest mohawk, I lost weight, I was pleasing my partners in every way possible so they were happy and content. I thought that if I made myself over I would be able to adapt to the new me without fail. Boy was I ever so wrong! I began to resent myself for not being able to share opinions the way I wanted to share them, I began to find it exhausting trying to manipulate and alter my looks, and I began to fake the smiles, the truth behind what was really in my heart. Pretty soon my inner circle had taken notice and knew that the real ME was being suppressed, and they asked, "Are you happy giving the Wrong Impression of yourself?" That right there was a nail that had dug through very deep! It reminded me of the song that I once grew to love, and you'd think I'd learn from the first time around, but I didn't and I repeated the same pattern yet again.

Finally I made a decision (twice) that made me appreciate myself and said, "No more!" Why was I giving the Wrong Impression and taking a chance for ME to be unhappy, in order for THEM to be happy? Both times, after I made my decisions, I listened to this song and had a much deeper appreciation for what came to be the best thing for me, the chorus of this song said it all as if it was written just for me:

Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
(Yeah) Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to
Make a connection
(Yeah) Of love 


I tried so hard to make that "connection of love" that I gave the Wrong Impression, and once I was wanting to come out with the real me, it backfired. Oh well, the Universe made both situations BE.

So to answer my own title statement question, "Wrong Impression...Or is it?"

I most certainly am Not nor do I GIVE the Wrong Impression...are YOU?

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